dorasipemimpi

not because I’m hanging on …

it comes for its complexity, its vulnerability and it is not predetermined …

basicly, it comes from having HIS touch in every breathe I take :) 

I feel devastated …

walking on this absurd world …

not alone … but lonely …

do i have to give up on this struggle …

neither give up will give me a perspective of a better life …

no matter what I am saying …

if the fact and reality always bites …

take this ‘hold my breathe’ along my way …

when i just can loose my breathe a bit …

take this moment to find finally there’s something for me myself …

then a wave coming reminding me that it’s not allowed …

"it will hurt your dearest"

me, in the middle … i don’t know actually where part that i’m standing on …

i’m the queen of superego (quoted from friends saying)

yes, indeed i am …

lost … inside my self …

believe in God … absolutely …

surrender my self to Him … absolutely …

He’s the love of my life … THE ONE

and … not but … I still have my struggle …

just want to be a human being indeed …

why is it so hard …